I Should Probably Be Sleeping... (Stacy)

    We leave tomorrow morning for Mexico! My alarm is set to go off in 3 hours (should I just stay up at this point?!). A wise person would be in bed but... here I am wide awake:P. If you had asked me a week ago how I was feeling about the trip I would have told you that I was nervous (to put it lightly). I am very afraid of flying, and, as lame as this sounds, it almost kept me from signing up for the trip. However, the past couple of days my anxiety over flying has completely disappeared and I can honestly say I am nothing but excited about the trip. I was not expecting that, but I definitely won't complain! 

    I've been trying really hard not to form any expectations for this trip. I have a tendency to come up with these grand ideas of what something will look like and then when the time comes I am left disappointed because it didn't look like what I had imagined. I'm not sure what the week will look like. I don't know if any of my three years of high school Spanish will come back to me. I don't know if I'll connect well with the kids or if my awkwardness will be my overriding quality. I don't know if the work we are doing will be something I'm good at or something that leaves me wondering if I was any help at all. I don't know if I'll handle all the food like a champ or if I'll be one that ends up sick the whole week. There are a few things I do know... #1: It's not about me. I'm not going on this trip to get something out of it, I'm going to give. I don't know what that will look like, but I know that it doesn't matter what I get out of it, it matters what I put into it. #2: If all else fails, I can love. There is no language barrier between a genuine smile, a warm hug, a competitive game of soccer, or laughing over our failed attempts at Spanish. #3: God works through us even in our shortcomings. 

    So I guess I do have one hope for the trip- that we would all love well. Love each other, love the kids, love the house parents and staff. 

    I think I'm finally tired enough to get some sleep (a nap?). Please keep us all in your prayers, can't wait to share during our trip!

                                    -Stacy